Little Miss Sunshine

Your father pokes in just your head through the kitchen door

He knows I love it when he does that

You stare at me with those big blue eyes

You have seen me sitting here before

Having the same breakfast day after day

Yet you look at me curious, intrigued, unfamiliar

I cannot help but smile

Like you are the first rays of sunshine in a cold German sky

Those big blue eyes, those fluffy cheeks,

Those chubby hands and feet

Your attempts at speaking that comes out as a shout

Incomprehensible yet screaming

Here I am. Look at me.

Your sweet, addictive smile

Your heartfelt, genuine laugh

That makes me want to do

The strangest of dances

The stupidest of voices

The most childish of actions

The most idiotic of gestures

All so I can make you laugh

Just one more time.

One day you shall grow up

By when I would have gone my way.

If you were ever to feel one day

And one day you will

That your life was worth nothing

That it had no meaning

Remember there was once a boy

who came from far far away

Whose days you lightened,

Whose heart you filled with joy

Whose pauses in life you made worthwhile

during the strangest of times.

I hope that makes you feel

Like Little Miss Sunshine

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